SoundCloud: Ndidi Love
SoundCloud: Ndidi Love
There’s a certain way to pray that won’t even allow certain energies to get past a certain threshold. I said a prayer; “everything not designed for me strip it from me & make it hurt me”. Then chaos happened, but that chaos led to realignment.
If it’s gonna hurt; make the hurt worth it. Replace what’s stripped with what’s designed. Mistakes will happen, but aligning yourself will become easier once you get used to it. Then your spirit becomes used to recognizing what doesn’t belong; because your spirit is sensitive to what’s designed. Things not designed will work hard to get in; & even find different ways to do it but constant prayer is what helps it stay out. & action, sometimes you need to tell a person straight up that this ain’t what you want.
I’m always praying. As I wrote in my book, I went to an open mic event that was trapped out; I was vibing, & praying all at the same time because God is everywhere. & I went on to say that the group performing actually came up & hugged me afterwards, not knowing I just prayed for them. I don’t limit God & I don’t see everything as the absence of God. I just let people be them because everyone’s journey is different. My message is for people specifically seeking God’s specific will; & that’s it.
I said all that to say; my prayers go deep & are not for the weak. I pray for God to hurt me with what’s not for me & bring peace with what’s for me. I ask God to put many choices before me & teach me how to make the best decisions based on these choices. I ask God to limit my audience to the people my message is specifically to those it’s supposed to reach, because I recognize that the greater the audience, the greater the responsibility.
Therefore everything cannot enter in, I have to constantly pray. I can be coordinating business with someone & pray; “if this person is not meant for me, let them forget to call me when they said they would” or something silly; & it happens. Then they call a day late like “oh my gosh I forgot”. & I’m so outgoing with my personality; people look at me & don’t think I’m this highly spiritual person, because outside of how we connect to God, we were all given these personalities to reach who we were supposed to reach. So just be yourself, & pray, & have faith, & do whatever else you do & the design of your life will shine when you’re aligned; it doesn’t have to make sense to anyone else. This world is full of followers who don’t even know why God created them; be intentional about finding out why God created you; & do the necessary work to align yourself with that purpose.
I remember a prophecy I received, in a church I was visiting, from a woman who I’ve never met before; in alignment with every other prophecy I’ve received before that; however – this one was slightly different, she said that she sees me reaching a particular group of ppl with a particular message in a way they’ve never been reached before, and that I’ll do it hilariously, she said she sees the word hilarious. Now everyone who knows me knows that in real life I am hilarious & love to laugh; but they also know I’m very intentional & serious about the things I’m passionate about. That prophecy always stuck with me above the others because it’s when I realized, being a faith person doesn’t look a certain way, faith is internal, I can tell you the many people who were inspired by the way I came through a situation, not necessarily in my everyday demeanor when I’m laughing, joking, preaching 🤣, & being myself, but how I come through situations & handle situations or before me. Every moment of life may not be inspirational; but situations, rather than preaching & words show people how faith works.
God is not dry; God is full of life, look around at the many people that God created. However, what’s important is getting to the message of what God intended to tell through you. Whether you’re a painter, singer, lawyer, fast food worker, or whatever —— a serious person, a lazy person, a comedian, extrovert, introvert —- God has a gift & message to come through you. Focus on that, not what it looks like to be a person of faith on the external, how are we inspiring people when we are challenged & facing issues. They will remember how we activated our faith. But to get to that pure voice of reason, we have to be intentional about protecting our space & getting in alignment while still respecting everyone’s humanity & treating with kindness. Don’t get me wrong, I’m an activist in my own right; I will turn up with facts when needed, but it’s always for the purpose of the greater meaning, not to get attention for myself. To the point where people depend on me to be the person to speak up (but that’s another blog post – rolls eyes)
Continue to live in God’s image, everyone. 🌟
Women, change your idea of what womanhood has to look like, & accept that the qualities you bring to the world are just as feminine as the hyper sense that’s pushed in this world. Strength is beauty, dark skin is beauty, we are the revolution that’s being televised.
However we choose to express our femininity is beautiful; it’s more about staying true to who we are in alignment with our purpose. Not everything we tell ourselves is true but we literally have to align ourselves with God’s will. I did that work, & it’s hard. We let go of a lot.
Our personalities are directly attached to who God wanted us to influence in this world. When we ask God “what was your idea when you created me” that forces us to accept all of it & correct the parts that are not aligned with what God said. We’re not perfect but we try.
I’m not talking religion, I’m talking faith. Faith of the ancestors when they had no reference or anything to read. Just faith in God that’s it. This work is hard but it’s worth it.
Whether you show your body or cover it up, one is not better than the other, it just depends on how you feel like presenting yourself, clothes & makeup is manmade. It’s beautiful, I too, like cute clothes & light makeup; but most of all I like comfort. Some like high heels & lots of makeup, I feel that’s beautiful too.
I have had to change my own view around women’s bodies & realize that most rules of women’s bodies came from men; I will not put that on another woman. However she expresses her femininity is up to her. How I express mine is up to me, but we don’t get to judge one another.
What helped me is asking myself why I’m doing something. I know I’m not out here selling sex or looking for attention, I just like this shirt because I like this shirt, is my skin a crime? Never. But just because I wear a long dress doesn’t make me wholesome.
I am wholesome in short shorts & crop top. If I wear baggy jeans, I’m still a woman. The essence of a woman is a spirit. We feel masculine & feminine energy it can’t be changed based on what we wear or what we change about ourselves.
To my brown & deep brown sisters, we are feminine. I’ve been seeing things online about the skin tone of a woman being attached to femininity. It is my ovaries, not skin tone that determines my gender. Masculinity has been attached to dark skin, that’s a direct effect of colonialism.
Worth is not attached to color, trying to make a woman’s worth based on her hair, skin, or clothing choice is dangerous. Let’s understand that any straying away from that does not change the sex or worth of a person, it just specifies their preferences.
Let us nurture women, & love women as the givers of life in this earth. Especially black women, we deserve for our femininity to be nurtured & embraced.
Black girls actions; whether the same as another ethnicity of women or not; will always be perceived as more aggressive. When other races “complain” it’s called a movement for change, but for us it’s just complaining.
Keep doing you my brown & deep brown sisters. Don’t ever question yourself. Strength is a beautiful feminine trait. “Strength & honor are her clothing, & she shall rejoice in time to come” Proverbs 31.
& I’ll stand up for every black girl that is wrongfully demonized. When the other races of women are praised for their strength. Colonialism really ruined y’all. Black women have received the worst treatment in the world amongst any group in any part of the world. That’s stats.
Yes women are effected, but black women are the most disrespected group of people on the planet. That’s it. We get it from the world, our own men, & each other as women.
I treat all black women with respect & I’ll never publicly disrespect another black woman.