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The Moment

The Moment (thoughts of an addict)

*Remember there are many types of addictions*

Whether it’s the fights

The clubs,

The Pipe,

Or just looking for love

Water is what I’m trying to keep my head above,

Searching for that moment, 

Needing that moment, 

Wanting that moment,

Not knowing if you’ll ever get to brerath that moment.

(While) Trying to find out who you are

Healing, but still picking at that same old scar

Opening an unhealing wound

Thats kept you bound wishing you were in the tomb

Maybe this is where my life will go

hoping, but still you will never know

wishing, but your running out of stars

Laughing, but your heart is hardened like tar

Finding that one thing to keep you sane

Its not all I need but I can’t complain

Clubbing every week to keep my mind off things

He doesnt love me but I’m still looking for that diamond ring

The herb takes my mind to another level

I feel relaxed then I halluconate, thought i saw the devil

Always wanna pop off when she gets in my face

I beat her down, I win and all my troubles I erase??

Simple addictions of a broken person trying to find whats right

A moment here, a moment there

I know its wrong but it feels so right

Could it just be that I’m addicted to wanting happiness

I cry I weep, I lose so much sleep

from dealing with all this stress

Or am I just addicted to the moment

the moment that makes me feel care free, its mine so i must own it

Take it for what its worth yet I’m hurting myself and others around me,

why cant I be set free

From this moment?

I know I won’t win if I continue in my sin

Why can’t I be set free from this moment?

Hoping it will go away but it continues to stay

Oh why can’t I just be set free from this moment?

If you could see my emotion

It would be like a junkyard being dumped into the ocean

Im drowning in my thoughts as I begin to sink

my mind goes 20 miles a minute but I still don’t know what to think

Thoughts from the past I try to erase

Dreams of a better day Is all I seem to chase

But somehow I still seem to get caught up in this one moment

Trying to fill my desires

my cravings go higher and higher

in just this one moment

Im going to overcome this moment And rise above it

Take hold of my life and make something of it

If I just hold on and press through 

I know true happiness

Can be so much better than this one moment

Because then I will see life is not peaches and cream

The battles, the trials, the times I wanna scream

I have the power to change and rearrange

and give myself a wider range

of options to succeed and tend to my needs a

and one day pass this lesson down to my seed

I will overcome

I have overcome

My moment is done

And my new life has begun ©

 

Written in 2011 by Ndidi Love

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Ode to Redemption

As a society we’ve become institutionalized; if what we’re doing isn’t part of an institution, we don’t value it.

We’ve become contextualized, if we can’t measure it, we don’t value it.

It’s simply not African worldview.

If we only value ourselves within the framework of an institution that wasn’t created for us, we will never truly value ourselves & those like us.

Ex: I love my friends’ music whether she is signed to a label or not. I love my friends artwork whether it’s for sale or not.

We’ve lost the value of building each other up & encouraging each other along the way.

I’m good at this so I exclude myself. I work hard to value my people & the work we’re all doing to better ourselves. That’s African worldview.

I make sure I treat Black people with the upmost respect; whether they have a suit on or their pants are sagging. Whether they have on a long dress or their cleavage is swanging.

I make sure that I smile at my reflection, my reflection is those who look like me & share the same hair type as me. If I love myself then I love us, there’s no in-between.

I make sure I greet us with kindness & love; even those who have not done the same for me. We have to practice love of self = love of each other. As Black people we must do that.

I’m quick to make sure I hear my brethren & sistren; before hearing the narrative from another group that does not represent us.

I’m interested in our stories, our stories that are told by us & no other. When we tell our own stories, we get a greater picture.

I’m proud of all our accomplishments, whether accomplished in our framework or not. I’m proud of us.

I’m happy for the book smart & the street smart, we can all learn from one another.

I’m happy for the African & the African-American, we share the same vibration on two different lands.

I’m happy for the Caribbean & Afro-British, we share the same vibration that only we can understand.

I’m happy for I know our accomplishment is not in all we have done, but in what is to come.

Our redemption we will experience as one. 💛

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Diasporans Making A Difference & How Has Your Culture Shaped You? Featuring: Ikechi Nwabuisi

Ikechi Nwabuisi joins Ndidi Love in DiasporAfri’s first ever double interview! Ikechi is a tech founder, entrepreneur, social media influencer, visionary, & participant in TechStars Seattle 19’! He employs a dynamic team of all Black & Brown people from various diverse parts of the Diaspora. I was so excited to interview him about his vision behind TRiBL: an innovative, groundbreaking new app that connects the Black Diaspora all over the world. The vision behind the app is so eloquently described by Ikechi in this interview where he even discusses the journey to his success, & the most important parts of his culture that shaped his success. My favorite line was when he stated, “Success is a series of painful failures… people need to have a safe space to fail, & fail hard”; that line has stuck with me to this day, a whole month and a half later! You’ll also be so inspired by the many gems he dropped in this interview.

When I first discovered the TRiBL app in November 2018, I was extremely excited as I had the previous week been looking for an app such as this, then I got a couple of comments on my IG posts from the TRiBL network, & decided to explore what the TRiBL network was all about! I quickly discovered that DiasporAfri met a match! A fellow visionary using our gifts to bring the Global Diaspora together. Since then, I’ve made new friends on the app, had daily group chats, and made some meaningful connections with Black people from all parts of the world! I encourage all to download and discover your tribe near you! Or far, but the app will bring you closer 😄.

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Find Ikechi & the TRiBL network on Instagram at @Buisi_x and @Thetriblnetwork, on Twitter @Buisi_x & @Thetriblnetwork; & download the app!

Please be sure to watch, like, comment, & share Ikechi’s interview.

Enjoy Loves! 💛🖤💛

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